My doctor thinks I am a ‘diabetic’

My story:

0439 AM, 1st October, 2008

Okay, the doctor did label me a ‘diabetic’ as I expected him to do during my visit to his office last evening. But the fact of the matter is that he just looked at the reports from the path lab before prescribing medication for a period of 20 days and then going for repeat checks. But that is the path I am not going to travel on and this blog is what this is all about.

My father had a blood sugar problem before he died of a heart attack, my mother is struggling with it and takes her medication regularly and there are others I know who are struggling to keep it in check.

The physicians have not been trained to look into the stresses that individuals live with as being the cause of diseases. It was no surprise when the doctor did not ask me even a single question regarding the stresses that I may be living with. He did ask me about the classic symptoms of diabetes that are displayed on a chart in his clinic – wounds not healing properly, excessive thirst, excessive urine, excessive hunger etc. – and I told him that I did not have any of these on a regular basis. I have experienced excessive thirst at times and that has invariably been accompanied by my body producing a lot of urine – but these phases have been kind of cyclic in nature. Here today, gone tomorrow!

I did not tell him about the one symptom that I do experience on a regular basis and that is the tingling sensation at different places on my body which keeps on shifting. I associate this sensation with energy working as it was one of the first feelings that I had when I started working with Reiki. So, this does not bother me.

So am I going to take this medication that he has prescribed half an hour before breakfast? Half an hour – this was news for me as I have seen so many diabetics popping the pill just before, and at times even during, breakfast. No wonder it does not work at times.

As far as I am concerned, I know that this elevated blood sugar is just the body going through REBALANCING. I am going to trust my body completely – that is what this journey is all about anyway – and allow this blood sugar to find its own balance and no medication is going to help.

I told the doctor that regular breakfast is something that I have not had for a number of years now – except for the recent period of three to four weeks. I prefer to have fresh fruits, if at all, and have the regular breakfast when on vacation and when I want to enjoy some particular food. He suggested lunch and looked surprised when I told him that my body would rather not have anything at all.

I then told him that I had experimented going without these two meals recently during July-August and had started enjoying the light feeling and the extremely high energy levels that I had felt during that period. I also told him that I had been forcing myself to eat three meals a day for the last month or so and as a result had become lethargic in a way. I told him that I was not enjoying this heavy feeling and the fact that I had gained a couple of kilos in this period. I have to push myself to do the mundane things in life – which is essential in a way as it gives me time to do the things I enjoy doing if I get rid of the mundane in the shortest possible period of time. Getting rid of the mundane was not a problem during that period as has restarted now that I am eating three meals a day.

The visit to the doctor freed me and the high energy is back. The fact that I got up early today and start working on this blog is evidence of this high energy level – I am enjoying doing this and I am free in this moment. Free from the necessity of eating breakfast and lunch everyday. There is a lot of energy around and I am just loving it.

I did mention the fact that exercise is known to help diabetics and he was not too ga-ga about it. I think he knows that one who has not exercised a whole lot so far in life is just not going to find the energy to start doing that on getting this bit of news which anyway pulls down a lot of normal human beings.

He had no answers and no time for my queries and I do not blame him for that. He is a good physician and a good human being and has taken care of me when I needed him to. I do not blame him for not understanding this thing about trusting my self and my body COMPLETELY to find its own balance. I know that it is his training that is coming in his way. I know that if I had got the news about being a diabetic maybe two-three years ago, then I might have gone into a state of depression and would have started painting the worst scenario pictures that would have taken the peace and joy away from me.

Instead, it is a feeling of elation and all that comes with it that I am experiencing in the moment. I know that I am not going to put myself in a kind of prison of medication and controlling what goes into my body and at what time and then keep on hoping that nothing goes wrong. I have seen enough of that in this life.

Time for a bit of break and then it is back to the routine of the day. I am going to suspend the testing for a period of time and instead focus on keeping record of my feelings and experiences during this period of rebalancing.


0530 AM

About Surinder
Am working as a healing facilitator using the techniques of Reiki, Crystals, Breathing and Food as therapy. Got into this field accidentally. Now this is what I love doing. This space is primarily for posting results of my blood sugar tests along with details of all the factors that I think influence them. The general impression about Diabetes is that it is a companion for life. I disagree and am positive that it's just a matter of time before the truth will reveal itself. I am sharing what I have learnt (and am in the process of learning) about what all can affect human health at my other space

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